When every part of me wants to run, to hide, to not exist anymore…I have a choice to make. It may be a split second choice, or it may be a recurring choice, but regardless – I have a choice…and so do you!
We probably have never met, but I assure you, we are facing the same need, the same desire for escape – that desperate need to get away, to retreat, to find a way to breathe again, to keep life, circumstances from crashing in on us, to stop the agonizing pain that leaves us paralyzed in fear and lost in a world that cares not for what we suffer.
Just when I think I will never have to face this feeling, this need, this overwhelming desire to escape…here it comes again!
I don’t know what you are going through, or what has brought you to this place. But I know the One that does know and He understands far more than you could ever imagine! He is the One and Only reason why I continue to press on, to persevere, to choose to wait it out, knowing He has a better plan ahead, knowing He will use it for good!
“And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to His purpose for them. For God knew His people in advance, and He chose them to become like His Son, so that His Son would be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters.”
Romans 8:28-29 NLT
I have learned in my walk with God, in my growing relationship with Him, that I can trust Him. I can trust His Word as His Promise, His Truth, and He keeps it all! He always has and He always will! And He has never failed me yet…and even when my “old self” is crying out with all I have, and Satan is tempting me to doubt yet again, I still know that I know and I trust Him! He has a much better plan ahead for me, even if I can’t see it yet, and even if I never do in this lifetime!
So…what do I do with that overwhelming,
all consuming, desperate need to escape?
I RUN TO HIM AS HARD AND FAST AS I CAN!
He has wide open arms waiting for me, cause He already knows what I’m feeling before I begin feeling it, before it wells up within me, consuming my entire being! And He’s prepared, He’s ready to comfort, to reassure, and give me His peace that is beyond anything this world could ever offer!
Oh I’m begging you – get to know HIM! Give Him a chance to reveal more of Himself to you day by day! He has so much love, comfort, joy, hope and peace for you…far greater than anything or anyone you will ever hope to find in this world!
If you have questions, want to talk, or are struggling with depression…I’m here for you. I do understand. Feel free to contact me. I promise to respond to every email, phone call I get. And if you live in Clarksville, Tennessee, I would love to meet you at our group that meets each Thursday night!